An old friend from college days, who is now a Lutheran pastor, said to me in an email, “It has struck me more than a few times how remarkable it is that two nihilistic, narcissistic scoundrels like we were ended up being blessed by the joy of the Lord!”.
I confess there is still some of that “nihilistic, narcissistic scoundrel” hanging around. As the Holy Spirit, bit by bit, prys my fingers loose that hold tightly on to that old self, more and more I live in love, giving and receiving love.
Why do we hold back from coming into the light and love and freedom of Jesus Christ? I think it is fear of exposure and the desire to keep doing what we are doing in the darkness.